[18 Dec 2009|12:38pm] leeno12088 "I opened myself to you only to be skinned alive. The more vulnerable I became, the faster and more deft your knife. Knowing what was happening, still I stayed and let you carve more. That’s how much I loved you. That’s how much." -Rabih Alameddine: I, the Divine post comment

a good nights sleep [17 Dec 2009|12:46am] leeno12088 [ music | tsl ] its sort of interesting to watch your life crash down before your eyes. all the realizations and shortcomings. i also think lack of sleep and overall sanity don't help the situation much, but I really do feel like i have nothing to offer sometimes. that my best isn't good enough. it's why i procrastinate, because then when I don't do well I have something to blame it on... like leaving it to the last minute, not on the fact that I am just inadequate. my life is hard to come to grips to. this is not where i thought I would be earlier in my life. almost one in the morning working on huge assignments that are grade altering, not really caring because all I can care about is how i am inadequate. AND i try too hard. and i let people take advantage of me. it's silly. i can't think of anything else besides these things. sigh. well at least i am almost done. then i can go home and forget this dark place I've been living in. I am putting this behind me... but only when I am done with this week lol. sigh... almost there. ps--> i dont want any sort of comments about how im a good person and such because i mean... i know i am and i know I have people who love me... i just needed to get some thoughts out. but thanks if you were thinking of me :) i know someday that you will wake up, as lonely as i am you can sleep in your own bed tonight you can sleep away a silent pain, screaming out my name i hope someday that you will wake up as broken as i am... post comment

[14 Dec 2009|09:53pm] leeno12088 fuck this game. YOU WIN. and i want nothing to do with it or you anymore. 5 comments|post comment

honestly one of the best shuffles my itunes has ever provided me with [13 Dec 2009|12:48pm] leeno12088 [ music | lotsss ] sing me something soft sad and delicate or loud and out of key sing me anything... ________ if it makes you less sad i will die by your hand i hope you find out what you want i already know what i am and if it makes you less sad we'll start talking again and you can tell me how vile i already know that i am ( see the rest... ) post comment

friends, lovers, or nothing [09 Dec 2009|10:00am] leeno12088 [ music | john mayer ] anything other than yes, is no anything other than stay, is go anything less than 'i love you', is lying post comment

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